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                                                      — 6) fingers kiss

either she was pretending to be asleep or she really
was, he couldn’t tell. couldn’t blame her either. he
frowned and sat the flowers down next to her bed.
clearing his throat he called her name softly a few
times. when she didn’t respond he grazed his fingertips
along her cheek ever so gently, brushing a strand of
hair off of her face.

           she really was so…beautiful when she was asleep.
           she looked so at peace and relaxed. it was almost
           hypnotizing, but if he didn’t leave soon she was
           sure to wake. he just had to make sure that she
           was okay — or as okay as she could be considering
           that she was laying in a hospital bed.

taking a deep breath he bowed down, gently scooping
up her hand he pressed a soft kiss to her fingers, a
pained look on his face as he pulled away. he had to
go but he didn’t want to. he wanted to stay here and
say a million different things to her but he couldn’t. it
wasn’t fair to cordelia to do that to her. so instead he
left the unmarked flowers beside her and walked out
the door. but before he left the room completely he
gazed over at her one last time before whispering:

                 ” i’m sorry. “